Coming home to myself: A Journey of Healing and Self-Acceptance
For years, I suffered from intense panic attacks and anxiety. It became so overwhelming that I found myself in the emergency room. During a visit to a neurologist, I learned that my amygdala—the small but powerful part of the brain responsible for assessing danger—was in overdrive. It was constantly signaling to my body that something was wrong, even when there was no immediate threat.
For a long time, I searched relentlessly for what was “wrong” with me. I went through therapy, tried to fit into versions of myself that I thought others would accept, and desperately looked for answers. But it wasn’t until after a simple, peaceful night’s sleep that something clicked within me: I had spent my entire life trying to fix myself, without ever realizing that there was nothing broken in the first place.
Being human means feeling deeply. It means making mistakes, learning from them, and allowing ourselves to be vulnerable. It means asking for help when we need it and embracing all the emotions that come with being alive. In that moment of clarity, I realized that my journey wasn’t about “fixing” myself—it was about accepting myself, exactly as I am.
With this new perspective, I began to integrate all the tools I had collected over the years into a healing practice. I brought together meditation from a Buddhist monastery in Belgium, yoga from my training in India, sound therapy from a course in Nepal. But the most important element I had yet to fully embrace was self-acceptance.
Self-acceptance became the thread that tied everything together. It wasn’t about pushing away the anxiety or ignoring my fears—it was about sitting with them, accepting them, and allowing myself to feel whatever came up without judgment. And this, this is where Somatic Experiencing (SE) comes in. My ongoing SE training helps me regulate my nervous system and guide others in doing the same.
The silver lining of my story: I want to share the tools that helped me come home to myself. I want to offer a space where others can do the same. A space where we can reconnect with our bodies, our breath, and our inner world. A space where we can show up as we are and embrace the raw humanness that makes us who we are.
If my story resonates with you, I invite you to explore my 1 on 1 guidance, group sessions or workshops.
Remember, you don’t need to fix yourself. Just breathe. Just be.
With love and vulnerability,
Médéric Delvaulx
